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So it's that time of year again....time for me to look back on the year that is coming to an end and make some plans for the new year.

2008 was actually a very good year! This year I have done the best I ever have in school passing all of my classes with good marks. I made a lot of new friends who are amazing people, but I've also lost some friends...but those people weren't worthy of my time. Mark and Taylor both moved out west and I miss them a lot, but it's almost a year now since they've both been gone with very few short visits home and I've been able to keep in touch with both of them. I was finally able to be brave enough to quit superstore in June. Best Thing Ever. I am now poor and building debt but who cares...atleast I'm free haha. I miss having a job though.

Best thing that has happened to me this year has had to be meeting Dan. Not even kidding, best thing that has ever happened to me. We've been together for four months now and it's been amazing. I've been in love before but it was nothing like this. He is my exact male equivalent. He goes to school and is insanly smart, he's just as crazy and weird as me if not more so, and he treats me better than anyone ever has...i'm spoiled rotten. Also...did I mention he's almost 7 feet tall!?! He's the only person who I don't feel like a huge freak whenever I'm with him...he comes in my size :). He's also given up a lot for me. A lot of his friends are into some serious drugs and he hasn't done anything like that since we started dating and since I got bronchitis has been quitting smoking <3.

I have also recently come to the conclusion that I am a much more mature person now than I was this time last year. I've stopped spending all my time at the bars, and I'm a lot more responsible. My time now is being spent on my friends and Dan and making plans for my future. Blessing in disguise this summer was getting mono....all I was able to do was go to work and sit at home. It made me realize that I was wasting my time always going out and not caring about my future.

I'm super excited for the New Years Eve festivities....we're all heading to the wave (since Mavor's was such a waste last year) to see Two Hours Traffic play. It's also kind of bitter sweet though as I know this will probably be the last New Years where all of the girls will be together. Kait and Shad graduate this year and will probably be in Ottawa this time next year...Katie will be off at a nursing school somewhere (probably in Fredricton), and Meghan and I will be here on our last year of school.

I'm hoping in 2009 I'll be able to come up with some serious plans for my future and have some goals for when I graduate. I'm going to  enjoy the time I have left with my girls when we can all be together, and I'm going to make the best of the time I get to spend with Dan :).

Happy New Year!
 

I just love it when life throws you about five million curve balls at once.
First....figured out no matter how many classes I take over the spring/summer and next year, there is no way I will graduate next year. Ok, I get it. I screwed up! I failed some classes! It's impossible to keep motivated for school when I keep getting further and further away from my goal. I'm finally doing well and making a plan for myself, but I just want to give up now. I don't think I can handle another two years at that damn school.
Second, I'm fucking POOR! Mom and Dad said they will pay for half of a spring class but only one, they said two will be too much for me right now since I'm so busy with everything else. I know they're just trying to help me out but that just got me even more frustrated. I completly forgot what the date was, and my car insurance came out of my bank account the other day but there wasn't enough money in there! So now I'm back in the negatives and my car is running on fumes and pay day isn't untill Friday. Fuck. Plus my phone bill is due.
Then, my phone BREAKS! When I got out of class today I went to take it off silent by holding in one of the keys and it started flashing a bunch of different screens then froze on the screen that shows the internet loading. So I ended up skipping my evening class to get to the Rogers store before it closed and he fixed it for the time being but he said it will have to be sent out to get fixed and I'll lose all my pictures and videos and music and everything. And I can't put them on my computer cause the damn phone freezes everytime I try!!!
I got home two hours earlier than I was supposed, get in the door and just start crying and I can't even tell my parents what's wrong because I'm crying too much. Then I finally get it out and expect them to just tell me to suck it up and grow up but they don't. Dad starts making my food and I cry more cause he's being nice and Mom does my taxes and I find out I'll be getting almost $200 which I desperatly need. 
I just don't know what to do...All year I've been working harder than ever and getting amazing marks but it feels like that doesn't even matter becuase I'm not even close to being done. And I've been working at Superstore and saving all my money from coaching but I never have enough money. I've been in school for four years working atleast two jobs and I have absolutely nothing to show for it. I haven't had an accomplishment since I graduated high school. 
Pathetic.